wat?

new year, a season where ppl will feel happy, will wish one another.
tat season is when all the love n blessing will go flyin around...
but, i duno why, i dont really can blen in to this season.....
i tried to blen in, but the more i try, the more i felt drop out..
haha...... so i just keep quite..... until i dun really talk much.....
and act as wat ppl wan... n not wat i am.....
it is hard, but i duno wat more can i do....
even at home, a mask was always with me...
when can i be me again? y cant anyone accept me as me...
n not as wat they hope to be...
why?

this new year, i duno wat meaning to me..
now, i also worried with my future..
wat can i do?
i really scare i did not do well, due to my health n hospital visit..
i noe i cannot blam anyone..
but i noe i tried..
so wat i get is mine...
n there is nothing i can do noe...

sometime i cannot sleep, thinking many things...
but i really duno who can i tell..
i duno who to tell..
ppl use to say tell ur friend... but the ones who i tried as friend,
didnt respond to this call..
some time i wonder, them , will they tread me as wat i tried them?
so, slowly, i start to feel lost...

now, i am wondering in a path i duno where it will leads....

new year?

first of all... Happy New Year o...
well, today is the third day of new year, which usually, ppl will go visit most of ppl de house... but i din go anywhere
hahaha....
actually i wanted to go somewhere de.. but i duno who to call to go tat place..
anyways,,, wat to do......
i can only be at home today...
n no ppl came visit as well..
haha.. this is the first time i dun really have the mood of chinese new year..
i mean, this begining of the year, i basicly din have any mood for any celebration..
haiz...
valentine, birthday, new year,.... i really duno now...
haiz,,,,....

but lastly, still need to wish everyone, happy new year.. i mean... happpy chinese new year. to every one...

hope every one have a wonderfull new year, may your wish come true.. ~!~!~!

have u every been to a misarable day??
haha..
plenty of things happen to me...
but, sometime, i dun really wan this things to happen... but i just cannot help not to let tat things happen.

haiz..... how?

sometime, i feel like will i be remember?
i mean, i always feel that can i find some one to talk to?
i mean a friend...
mayb i'm not someone ppl will remember....
but...
haiz..
mayb i'm not someone who noe how to make friend..
haiz....