yes~!~!

yeah... at last finish work liao.... ^^ so happy...
haha... stant for the whole 3days.... now can sit down.. SO 幸福o.... haha...
so now just sit here on9.. n yaya, pc fair, i buy webcam liao lo.. so happy o...
hihi... now can use my webcam.. although it is not so good.. but it is already enuf liao...
haha/////..
i vry fast happy de.....
well tomolo need to work again.. haiz.. need to sleep de lo......

working.. haha...

well.. this is the second day working.. one more day to go.. haiz.... a bit tired now... been standing for the pass 12 hours.. yap.. haha "din noe i can stand for so long... ^^
well.... really have fun doin streamyx promotion.. haiz... but takling n asking ppl to sign up to streamyx... haha.. not easy... ^^
but at least i got some sign ups this two days......
need to be happy for it... ^^
well, tomolo.. sunday.. won be tat easy to finish 12 requirement... today i only have 6.. haiz.....
jia you lo me.... lolz... mom not back yet.. hai.. all need to be done ourself.....
need some sleep now.... so nite nite lo..^^

ai...

today mom n family wen kl luu.... T.T
home a lone... need to do more work.. aizz
need to go do work lo... if not cannot finish by two people o.....
jia you o...... ^^

wah... whole day...

yesterday, when out shopping with my mom... but din buy anything.. haha.. just got myself a cloth.....yap.... ^^
thn at night, help my sister check her thises until 3.xx in the morning.... ai... not fun at all.......
haha.. so woke up vry late today... haha..... seldom woke this late... woke up around 11.00.. ai...
thn have breakfastat home.. thn is working again... haha....
had a late lunch.... just finished my lunch thou.... haha....
so need to go bahai center tonite... need to prepare... n als some of the things that is needed.. ^^
ai.. going to be a lone tomolo n until one week... ai... only two monkeys will be at home... T.T
not fun la.... ai.. but wt to do?

wedding~!

haha... my fren got marrid.. yeah... haha.. really happy for her... ^^ hihi..... woke up so so so early yesterday.. around 4.30 am.. early rite? duno y this few days cannot sleep well.... ai....
thn my uncle from terengganu bring us go eat breakfast.... haha... so nice.. but i cannot eat much oo........ T.T not feeling well thou..... aiz...
thn start going to kote marudu.... for the wedding.. ^^ hihi.... fun o.....
we reach there around 2.00.. ^^ n my friend is getting married... haha.... so happy for them..... ^^...
after tat, when back home around 5.00.. haha... reach kk already around 9.xx....
here is some pictures o...^^

orang utan?

haha, today staied at home n din go to schooll..... too tired.........^^
well, mom ask me to help her find orang utan... haha... the pictures r so so so so cute.. ^^ like it... well cannot write more thn need to finish my orang utan... ^^

today....

today i when to do all the payment with my pa... haha...
well, morning i went to school as usual... thn after library, i went to kong's house.. did not know he actually stay vry near to dorothy's house haha.. there got so many kittens... so cute~!~! n two big cats.. preety..... haha
after reach home, straight away help my mom to prepare her things....
after my mom went off, my followed my pa to pay the bills... went to TM point.. so cute, the workers there all wearing tie tat is printed with the word TM point.... haha... saw stella n thien there.....
after tat, when to center point.. haha... pay the astro bill.... well, there was a fight there.. i mean gal fight... haha...... in side the astro shop... got ppl chao jia....... wa, tat gal really is angry......
thn i when to karamunsing.. haha.. yeah pa speng me eat poridge....hihi... but i ate vry slow, coz i' having hou long tong.... haha
when buy something n then i ended up here.......... in fron of the com after i come back home..^^ haha... to night need to go Baha'i center.haha.... so today need to prepare early... ^^

biithday of Baha 'u' llah

haha.. yesterday was Birthday of Baha 'u' llah... yeah, i got to wear nice nice to Bahai centar....
haha.. i wore all blue, n u noe wat, most of my friends wore blue too... so it was like.. YEAH.. all in blue.. hihi...
got many people went yesterday.. haha... meet many friends.. ^^ so happy..... wai ho told me bout the stpm exam... n it was so scary.. i think i need to work hard lo.... jia you o...~!~!
yaya.... one more thing is tat the refreshment was so nice.... but the not nice thing is tat i'm having "hou long tong" ai.... i can't even eat all those tasty food....... T.T
yesterday slept so vry late.. around 3.. huh.. n i woke up 9.30 this morning.... uhuh... i straight away clean the house.... yap... hihi.. the house is too messy.. i u noe how much i hate to c the house in a mess.
after tat, my pa ask us to push the car.. u noe y? coz the cat cannot start.... push the car is not a big problem... but pushing the can in the rain.. wah.. tat is a big problem.....
haha.. was all wet though.... haha.....
well, duno wat to do today.. hmm.. really need to find something to do de. lo.......^^

some pic at ranau

cousins

ic~!

today....

it been one week of holiday... i think la, but one thing i dun like is tat i stil need to go back to school every day...~!~! OMG

so tired~!~! n not fun at all....... every day need to c those books~! ai.... plus, i getting sick again~!~! arg!

well...... been sleeping more today, hmm a sign that i'm getting sick~!haha...

ya o... tat nigth when to watch movie with yen nie.. lolz, we watch zorro, a nice movie~! yeah like it.... n got a bear again... cool huh~! the bear was SO CUTE~! try think where would i put the bear..... haha..... it was also a mirical that my mom would let me watch movie until 11.xx... haha... nice~!

pass few days, my cousin was at my house too... so happy to meet them again... there are from singapore, so u noe how long only i can meet them once. =) hihi, there r so tall.. n preety of coz.><

well, need to get ready to go bahai center liao.......^^ today is a big day, need to wear nice nice..... ^^

huh?

today is the first day of holiday... yeah... ppl should be happy of it.. but not me.. today early morning... i need to go back to school to check the books in the library... oh well.. wat to do bout it......
haha.. when to school around 7.50 am.... means i need to wake up around 7 in the morning... ai.... but at least i got little rest yesterday.... (except waiting for someone to reach home....) but at last i cannot stand... n of coz..... fall a sleep... got a terrible dream.... argh....... n the thing is... i got back their msg only around 12.xx..... i really do not have enuf sleep.... ai..... .... ><
yeah.. tat was morning... thn din have any breakfast till around 12.00... ai.... here goes again....
well wat to do... need to check all the books... at least i hv reach 800 book... (some thing that i can be happy of today) so tired........ but the bad news is tat i stil need to go back to school... coz y.. coz i'm the ketua ting 6?? wat is this.... u noe, three week is like... damn long ok..... ai......
ok .ok... back to today.... yeah... after having lunch (at last..) when back home in louise's car... hihi.. so happy..... can reach home safely..... ^^
reach home... but my parents was no in.. meaning need to take care of my sisters n brother. ai...
thn wash the colth , clean the room, take the cloth, dry the cloth, clean the fan.... zap.. in is already 5 pm/..... ai,... thn where was i after tat? =) of coz in fron com la... XD
haha.... but now need to cook lo... no idea wat to cook.......... ai,......
holiday so not fun... where also cannot go.. cannot go out, cannot go camp..... ai............... SAD~!!~
but there is more things tat let me feel sad.... now i seldom chat with him.. i start to duno who is him..... n i dun like this feelings... ai....
well today i wil go c movie with yennie... mayb she can help me...... haha... at least some entertaiment for now~!

fun~!

just came back from Ranau...... yeaz.. my home town.. it seems a long time since i when back to ranau...
well.. many things have change there..... haha... but yet every thing still seems the same.... haha... miss the roti canai over there. haha
well... meet my cousin there.... there r so tall~!~! wah.......... i really getting shoter now..
haha..... i when to sabah tea..... nice place...........
if go ranau... i cannot miss to play chess with my cousin..... there r so good.... hai... long time din play.........
well... on the way going back to kk... the mist was so thick until i cannot c anything... wah.. so scary...... lucky my pa was a good driver..... haha.......
well... need to do work lo...........

wat am i?

i use to think.. who am i n wat am i?
i'm someone ppl trow rubbish at?
i am someone ppl dun care at all?
i'm someone tat ppl make puppet at?
i'm someone who wokr hard but at last gets scolding only?
i'm someone trying to chage all my wrong doings but at last stil been scold by ppl?
i'm someone with no friends?
i'm some one which cannot talk my feelings out?
i am some one that cannot say NO.. n when i say that means i'm wrong?

i not sure what am i .. but i noe all above is me...
so meaning i am as a rubbish... yeah... a rubbish.....
funny heh..... ppl can hate me so much,..... n i also hate my self......
i hv tried hard... but it is all useless.... what can i do?nothing.
i'm not friendly at all... no use.....
all my felings i need to keep deep in my heart.... keep it as deep as posible...
i am asking.. wat am i in ur heart? tell me truly... if i'm someone bad.. just tell me... i'm not someone who can hate one ppl easyly..... tat i noe..... coz i my self is hate by ppl.

? vs ??

hahaha.. i alwayss don't know wat to put in my title... it seems vry hard to put...
well... many things has passed... first is prom nite, thn is a day working in the new hotel.. LE MERIDIAN.. fun o... so nice the hotel... i love goin new hotel... tats y i love my mom's job... haha... lucky me o
well, today is bb ball match.... haha... form 6 won. but i noe tat actually the form 4 can play more better if they were not under perasure..... poor them o....... well , tomolo there is another match... haha.... i think they mayb will win gua....
today i spend my time in the library as usual... well, i type the chinese books in to the com... hmm, only manage to finish 10 books.,.. so slow o..... rite? but u noe how long i finish only 10 books? well almost 1 and a half hours... haha..... need to improve in my typing o.... lolz.....
well... another day have pass n i still not yet think wat to buy.. hmm wat to buy a? i'm thinking to make my self.. but i noe many dun like de... wat to do.. wat to buy? y so many ppl birthday at the same time de?
haha... u noe, yesterday something funny happen.. i was involve in one of the party chats... but the point is, i din noe anyone in da party chat... so the only thing i can do was to noe new ppl... it was ok ok for me to noe new ppl o to makes friend.. u all noe that i'm not good at tat.....
well ,... need to finish my home work fast... cannot write more lo.. ^^
good luck to al those is de friends o.. good luck in ur exam...~!

hihi... exam.. two more dayys

yeah... two more days to go...... but this exam... not easy...... is chinese...... wah.. not fun o...
need to study the two books... but the main thing is not tat.... is the book all need to hafal....
ai.....
well.... i think i can finish de.....
jia you o.... yes....... ~!~!

a girl thinkz

When a GIRL is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you, she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says I love you, she means it.
When a GIRL says "i miss you," no one in this world can miss you more than that.

hmm..... thinking n thinking n thinking

many days i did not write my blog... kind of busy lately....
haha.... sometimes things does not go the way we wanted.. but wat can we do thn?
today i when to school. actually we go to school to study, but lastly the teacher did not come. so i ended up playing b.ball... funny, i keep long hair, but someone told me i look like a guy, n they actually thought i am a guy? omg? with long hair???
but sometime, we cannot control wat people think we are, but sometime it is really hard listening to them. but the only way to bcome better, to improve , is to listen to them.
well, mayb i am bad n no quallity, o many, but wat can i do? is it my wrong n i need to change it?
ever we felt something we dun wan to feel, but the feel keep on coming?
ever u try dun to be sad but u cant?
ever u try hard to change ur personality but u become worse?
ever u try to make frends but u ended up alone?
had anytime you feel that no people can accept wat you are?
well, wat do u feel when u are no good in anything? n nothing at all?
always people say that there are things that you are vry good in, o if practise, thn you can be good in it. but until now, i never believe it. haha.... when u do not have the talent, meaning u really don't have it. no matter how much you practise or change. haha....

dun ignore ur gf sms.

Jane is a typical college girl who enjoyslife to the fullest.She loves her boyfriend so much and texts him every now and then.
Mark is Jane's boyfriend who works in a call center in Los Angeles.He's always busy doing so many things.He only manage to reply to Jane's texts when he got off from work.
One time, Mark receive a message from Jane : "Hi baby ! How are you ? I miss you ! Call my house when u get home..take care ! I loveyou !"
Mark ignored the message because he always receive the same message when ever it is time for him to go home from work.
"Baby, I miss you...did u eat yet ?! Take care when you get home ! I'll be waiting for yourcall...I love you !"
"Baby, where are you ?! It's unfair that you dont reply to my texts...well, I'm just gonna wait for your call...I love you !"
Mark reaches home and lay on his bed.The last time he knew is that he's reading Jane's text.
He was so tired he fall asleep and wasn't able to return Jane's call.
He can still hear his phone beeps but he's too tired to take a glimpse on the message.
When he woke up the next day, he remembers that he needs to call Jane.He ignored the messages and dialed to Jane.
No one answering in her house.He called up her cellphone and he was surprised that her father answered the call.
In his voice you can feel his tears and hear his heart tearing apart.
"Mark, why havent you called ? Jane was waiting for your call all night !"
"Dad, I'm sorry. I fell asleep being so tired from work...I was calling ur house but no one was answering. Where are you ? So I can come over."
"Just meet me at Jane's house."
Mark went to Jane's house and much to his surprised he saw a lot of people inside.The house were so lighted but you can see the gloom on every person you'll meet there.
He was greeted by Jane's mom on tears.She hug him tight and cried on his shoulders.
"Jane was waiting for you. She didnt come with us because she was waiting for your call.She was killed by robbers that broke in our house. She's gone, Mark. She's gone."
"Thats impossible...she texted me...how could this happen ?!"
Mark can't look who's inside the coffin.He can't move and it feels like his whole body is stuck on the chair he's seating on.
He wanted to cry but it seems that something is blocking his tears to fall down.
He turned to his phone and read the messages of Jane.
"Baby, I'm not coming with my mom and dad..I'm just gonna wait for your call...."
"Baby...I'm so scared...It seems like theres someone downstairs...please call me now !"
"Babe....someones here...they might kill me...please call me now, where are you ?I need you here..!!"
"Baby....I love you !..."
He wanted to shout and cry so loud.It's true that Jane is waiting for his call.Up to her last breath she only thinks about him.
He stared at Jane inside the coffin.Suddenly tears starts flowing down his cheeks.
He can't say anything.The only words he uttered...
"My baby, I'm so sorry ! I could have known,I could have fought for you ! I'm really sorry !I love you so much !"

stop???

this few days working.. ai... at last my eyes can rest.......
well..... yesterday talking with my mom n my big sis about the company....
i was shock when my mom ask me to stop study..... OMG... stop my studies??
the first word come out from my mouth was NOT WAY... NOT on earth that i'm going to stop my studies.....
well, tat means i really need to study hard to ensure i can get a scolarship thn. if not, i duno can i continue my studies to the level i wan o not... ai......
to tell the truth, at first, my mom erally hopes tat i can go to matric.. coz tat can cut down the expenses use by me... but i did not wan to study tat.. i wanted to study chinese.. i noe many ppl think i'm crazy coz i choose to study chinese.. which is not so popular... but.... wat to do... i have choosen this path.. i need to continue my long jouney... n i really need to get result.... ai.... duno how can i do it thn.. i don't wan to loose this appotunity to study...
so JIA YOU O~!!~!!~~!~!!
haha... today i take care of my sisters n brother.. haha.. been beat by my brother for more thn one hour... ai~! but at last he stop n sleep... hmm..... so pain... haha.....
well late lo... need to do homework lo..... ^^
going to study extremely hard~!!~ hihi... jia you o me~!

Its a long time

Well, I seems a long time since I did not write my blog... Many things happen to me within this period of time.
Stil remember tat day my frien got lose in the jungle. lolz. listen bout his story really funny. it was raining and they could not get down from the water fall. but at last they manage to come back safely. really got us a shock.. haha.. a yek call me just to tell me tat his sis also gone missing until 10.xx night.. i mean they left the house at 6.xx morning. he was really scare tat his sis really missing.^^
thn this few days holiday. well, i'm really good in breaking things.. yap, i broke my spec again.. need to tell u clearly.. it is AGAIN. meaning in the whole family, i'm really good in spoiling my spect.. haha.. need to get one new one. well nothing much different coz just change the bingkai of the spec.
well at first the aunty of the shop, (which noe me quite well for breking my spec) took a pink spec for me... PINK?? OMG, i can wear any colour spec except pink. not tat i hate pink, but duno y i just dun like. but at last the old spec cannot fit in to tat, thn only we change to this GREEN one.. lolz.
this few days working over night.. haha.. tired. well i think i really need a GOOD REST.... hihi.. i write until here only o.... time to find my pillow n SLEEP~!~!