coldness.. or refreshing?

rain.... water that falls from the sky,
it brings freshness and moisture
to the land they fall on
giving life and hope to every being....

as rain come, it brings along a gift,
it is a gift from Heaven,
more precious than anything ...
it brings life to the land.

but sometimes,
rain brings more then hope,
it brings sorrow, and emptiness
that makes people weep as it falls.

sometime i start to wonder,
what are you...
are you a gift , a bounty that was given from heaven,
or are you a reminder, telling us to be think carefully

as i look out the window to the falling rain,
i felt happy because it rain, at last..
but i do know someway in my heart,
theres a slide feel of sorrow.

you might say that it is the nature of the rain..
and there are no one to ask to...
but some how i still wonder,
are you my gift, or my reminder

are you coldness.. or refreshing

in class

I have class, but i am very tired.. coz i duno wat to do now.. haiz..
every wed n tues..
some of u might think that having com class is fun... but not when u need to do all the exersice in the com..
u will get really tired...

when i say tired, i mean really tired....

haha... everyday need to learn many many things.... ^^
luckly i fund it quite interesting... if not i really duno how can i survive in earning spanish all the time..

today olej no water neh.. coz the pipe was broken.. so they need to change the pipe today.. haven take my bath yet.. duno when the water will come back..,.. luckly i was able to keep somewater.. so that in case that the water din come today, at least we stll have water tonight.. ^^
haha... not like last time no water to brust teeth n drink water..

later at night got meeting.. i really dun feel like going... tired... but wat to do.. i must go... ^^

talkoing bout night... i really have two really funny n fun roomates.. they are willing to help each other.. n that is really nice of them.
yesterday we did disco in the room... it was really really fun... Y^^^

haha... all the best to them////
lateron i will write more bout them

wat a day

well, not much things happen to me..
haha, recenly i am always sleely, coz not really enuf sleep...
but then still ok la....
haha,
this few days was the konvo... i was actually incharge to wash plates.. but lastly i did not go because i was sick..
haha, sick again... plus some one came n visit me... , so i was even more tired thn usual...
haiz...

now is almost ten weeks i was here... haiz...
i did learn something.. but i really need to work as hard as posible... u know, i;m not that type that all the knowledge can easily get in to my head... nop... really not those type.. but wat to do.. all i can do now is work hard...

so that i can catch up on wat i miss..

ya, one more thing, on merdeka day, i went to c fireworks...
haha, it was beautifull.... really nice... ^^
so happy to c it....
haha, it was a competition actually,and that day the country that is competing is Japan...
at first it was not so nice, but then... the last part was really nice.. they put up many many many fireworks until it turns into a big giantic love shape firework...
nice..
thn of coz we took tans of pictures... but, i did not take much pictures... because i dun't have a camera... ^^
haha
never mind.. all put in head thn ok liao de lo...

lastly, gambatee to all my friends... jia you jia you to u all o...

p/s: my mom is coming soon... so happy... ^^
i can have my things here.. ping pong.. guitar.... haha~!

aquarium....

i went to the aquarium recenly..... it was so fun.. with many fishes...
hihi... a saw sea turtle.. they are so so so cute... hihi.. when i say cute, i really mean that they are cute... but then... i walk future, i saw a more cure creature.. it is a monkey.. a very small monkey...
hihi, so cute n small... ^^
i took picture with it.. but i cannot hold it.. ^^
haha...
thn i saw kangaroo as well.. ^^
ans the skung.. ^^
haha.. but i canot take any picture of it/... coz we cannot that photo at that area.. they only let us to c it only....
haha.... ^^

thn i got to c the under water creature... saw the sting ray, so big.... haha..
the shark too...
n there are scuba diver in the water as well......
hmm... they are not scare on the shark.. ^^
haha... it was really fun... ^^
hope next time can go c even more nice one... coz i wana c dolphine,,, feel that they are so cute.. ^^

haha... next week exam... hope all the best to me.. ^^

gotong royong

well, we have our gotong royong last sunday... haha, yesterday la... it was fun/... n i wa able to meet with a lot of ppl... ^^
so happy....
we all took plenty of pic.. all sot sot de la.... ^^
still okee.... ^^
going to let u all c the pic once i get them..

now lets talk bout today, today i start class... but i dun quite understan wat the teacher was telling.... haiz.... but hope i waill get wat she is talking after studyong the books la... ^^
hopes all will be alrigh...
next week is my exam.. hope i can get flying colours.. T.T
hope la...
really need to study hard.. as hard as i could... T.T

okie la.. as for now... my life in uni..

jia you to me..


n btw, i feel okie.... no more sick.....
happy of it.. cAN SING now... ^^


hahaha.... ^^
but my roommate sick now.. hope she will get well soon

tired

was up till 3 recenly... studying/..... now i can practice my spanish more, coz my room mate is talking to me with her language n i am answering it in spanish... sp io hope my language can inprove....
yersterday i went to the biAN lun , debate chinese de la.... at first i did not wan to go there... i wanted to go to the xiang sheng zhu... but last last kena pull to go to the xiang sheng zhu there la.... haiz..... ^^ nvmm..... but thn kena call up to go bian lun again...
n then we debate lo...
the title is walking brings more happyness thn driving//...
so basicly... i was like, wat title is this.... ^^ still ok la... so i when on bian lun.... but thn wat happen was that.... i got to go for another round of pk debate.....
haiz..... last last, just debate tilll it was 12... but one happy thing is that i was able to eat cake... chocolate cake .... eat also feel happy liao... because there was some one birthday.,,,... ^^
hahaha... one very very very senior de senior.... ^^

but overall, it was still ok.. but i really hope that i was able to go for the xiang sheng too that day,,... coz say wat also, i like xiang sheng... i mean i love to c n talk ... ^^

and it is not as tense at the debate... but writing the scripe is another thing al.......

ya, one more thing, i need to go dance ... haiz... so tecnacly i need to go down to dance.. i think i need to take her placeto dance de... so gambatee to me....
n i feel much more helthy liao..... thankz to all those who took care of we when i was sck.... reallm thankz you, xie xie, arigato gozaimasu, gracias...... terima kasih......

sick badly

i am sick for so many days now, each time i feel the i am recovering, thn i get my fever at night again... and a bad one too...
haiz, miss class for two days liao... keep on asking ppl got wat homework, but no one wans to tell me leh.. they say dun have,... haiz.... dun noe how... ..
hope i will noe the homeworks la.... T.T

there are so many things i wan to do.. but somehow, i cant finish them coz i noly can do things a while only.. thn need to rest... n i loose weight too... coz i was sick till i cannot eat most of the things here.. T.T really sad bout it... i really miss all the vege... hope to go back home n eat nice nice food......

haha, but anyway, i hope i will recover as soon as posible.. i also would like to thank all my room mate.. tere are so good, and really took real care of me all this while... thank you o.... ^^

continue

continue with my life... i got sick... n really sick.... i'm so tired.. i think i need to sleep for little more...

but , still ok la... life here, the time pass like water..
i duno how much i have learn, but i will try my best to do wat i can....

basket ball?

today , my day was really busy... hahha..
i woke up at 8.00 morning... actually is dreak my self out from the bed... haha..
so basicly, i did not get much sleep...
thn i go the ptum de function... busy... but i think it will be vry fun de/...
so just go.. it turn out ok... ^^
thn at 3, i when to youth gathering in one uncle house...
we did bbq, but we wasnt the one who cook the things'
thn we all play the treasure hunt.. n boy how hard is it to play..
our group just got 61 mark... so funny neh.
but nvm la... happy liao thn ok..
thn louise call ask me to play basket ball...
so i when to her colledge to play basketba;lll..
well, play in mid night.. not really midnight la.. but it is nite time;..
so samething hard to play..
plus i cannot c somemore..
bu tluckly i was able to play....and it was fun....
never have that fun time since i came here///.......
haha...... but noe i so so so os tired... feel wana sleep liao... i think later i will sleep lo... nite nte to every one
jia you.. gambatee/...

上课了!!

我上课已经是第三个星期了... 可是我还是一点东西都不会.
大家都可以说留利的西班牙语.但是, 我还很乱.
我看, 我是时候在努力拉. 可能是自己不够努力.

好烦呀~!~!~!

下个星期就是考试.. 我也不董怎么考试.
现在我唯一能做的,
就是
努力努力再努力,...........

每个人都有自己的问题,
但,
问题是可以解决的,
只是看看自己要不要努力把问题决绝而已...

time + memory = history

as child, i look foward to this place,
and as teenager, i made it as my goal,
there was so many hopes i lay my dreams apon it,
and now i am in it..

thinking back to the pass now,
i miss my childhood,
looking back now,
i miss my teeenager life style...

sometime, people are so funny,
when they don't have it, they strive to get it,
once they get it,
not many apreciate it.

mayb one of them is me,
or even you.
but please bere in mind that,
life + memory = history

wat we need to know now,
is wat are we going to do NOW.
and future.....

days in university passes in a flash,
i don't wan to make it as only my memory,
so i will strive to make each day meaningful..
can i?
and will you?

Melaka

when to melaka on the saturday,... wern nie bring me n bei san oveer to her home town, although we din go to all the history place, but they really bring my all over the place to makan...
made really a lot of friends there, and it was really fun... ^^

i ate durian there, n nice one too... really need to thankz aunty to take us in to her house to stay... n thankz to pei ling n pei yee too... who bring us all around malaka to look look see see and eat... ^^
it was really fun there.....

when i reach there i loose my voice. but tat din really stop them to bring me out and eat all the nice nice food... ^^

i ate plenty type of food, and those i never c b4, like celup sate, i think tat is wat they call it, thn the rice round round de, thn mai ya tang, a king of candy, durian, nyonya food and many... ^^ so nice neh.,.... ^^

beside that, they also sing k at home, wah, now only i noe that their whole family can really sing,... n sing in a melodies way too.. T.T i wasn't able to sing coz no voice...

ya one more thing, i think i'll be find here in um, coz all my senior took really good care of me.. ^^ got fdew lecture from them bout how to take care my self.. ^^ really need to thank them o...

today study no voice, my teacher was so good, she din let me read anything, haha, i cannot read them either. LOL...
ok la.. until here...
all the best to all my amigos...
GOOD LUCK

days in uni

it is the second week in uni now, well, and it is time to talk bout my first two weeks in uni life...
well, the haluan siswa is really a challenging thing,,... but haha, overall atill ok...
every day, we only get to sleep for like 2 hours.. n take bath at late night.. but till the last few days, it was ok already.. everything is back to normal again...
haha, but one thing that made me vry sad is that during tat time, i break my glasses.. so meaning to say, i dun have glasses for like 5 days.. i broke it when i was playing bola baling...
haha, long time din play that game.. we dint win, but at least i enjoy the game n made many friends.,..

so happy neh...

one more thing, we lose in our cheer leading competition... it was bad.. but nevermind.. i dun really mind winning also.. haha

thnh after a week, my class started.. well, it was bad.....
coz i realize that my class credit hours are overall more thn other ppl.. n my class number are really small.. only 6 ppl... os... a lot of studying and teacher will always c u... hmm... no compliments... haha..

one more thing. learning a new language wasnt a nice thing to do.. u need to study real hard.. thn in my condition where i'm not use ti the food and all. it was really hard...
i wander how could i survive till the 3 year... ??
gambatee to me... * haha.. learning spanise but still type in japanese...
well, i mayb going to malacca to visit there ... ^^ hope everything will be ok...
n ya, i attainted the NDF yesterday, haha, luckly there are ppl that i noe.. ^^
the comity there are vry good. the aunty even give me cakes to bring home.. ^^
n prayer books too.. which i forgot to bring.. ^^

ok la... until now. adios

driver..= mamat

well, now i noe y driving is tires and why i dun like driving.

ya, of coz driving is fun, u can go any place u wan.. but once come to finding a parking and looking only the road and cannot do anything except driving, thn, think again, driving is not tat fun after all..

haha...

today i send my sis to places she wanted to go.. haha... tell u the truth, i wasn't able to even wake up..
LOL.....
but luckly i was able to drak my self out from bed..
thn send my sister to hospital...
haiz..... tired...

just now went our with ting yau to city mall..
hihi, so happy.. thankz to him so much...
thank you..
although the thing i plan did not went smothly, but thank for fulfilling it...
i was so happy.
hihi..

one more thng, we have a farewell thinging for ting yau yesterday.. haha... talk until so late...^^
i think next time we won have tat much chance to stay that way..
but still ok... hihi.... sure will miss him much..

duno tomolo de flight i can go send o not leh... T.T
hope i can go...
hmm, really need to pack my things liao... OMG.... not yet even start packing.. not a good sign...

jia you to me.. all the best to all...
and will always miss you to him..

tired day...

as day passes by,
the day to get in to uni comes near...
and how nervous i am now,
i'm scare that i will mis bringing something to tat place
i duno..
and all my friends
sure will miss them all

well, today prepare my things
wah, so many need to do, with so little time

haha, but guess wat, i got a new laptop..
so nice neh
hahaha
so happy also
thankz mummy n pa.. ^^
i really need to thank them coz i can get in to uni... ^^
haha...

eat dinner

today we all went and have dinner with our form 6 teacher..
haha, u coulden have think that actually eating with teacher can be very fun..
and when i say fun, i really mean it.. ^^

haha.... we talk with teacher bout uni life... they give us many info.. and it was nice..
i was happy.. ^^
haha... luckly i did go...
i was able to go two places in one night... ^^
haha,

but now, i have many things need to prepare again...
i'm leaving sabah on the 30,
n i haven prepare my cloth yet..
black skirt, baju kurung... OMG...

money come out like water... T.T

hope every thing will turn out ok....

i'm starting to feel nervous now... haiz.. i think it is time i go c a movei first.. ^^

goin of soon

now everyone is going in to uni, including me, lucky enuf, i was able to get in to Um..
hha//....
well, leaving sabah to west.. hmm, something i did not think tat much, but hope i will get use to it as soon as possible.
talk to teacher bout it, and got whole lots of information from her.. so happy i talk to her..

well, many of my friends will be studying in UMS...
i sure will miss them, T.T

gambatee to all of u... ^^

a day out

went out today.. it was fun.. at least can get my mine off a while. but haha.. not that fun also..
coz i need to worry my big sis too.. ^^
so din actually shop much.. is more like bring my big sister go jln jln..
haha.. but use to it liao.. ^^
this time go out i tot i can go c movie, mana tau my sister late late, thn everything is late.. so i din have the chance to c movie with my friends.. they said it was nice.. T.T
i so long din go c movie.. hmm.. i go kacau cts they all ask thm to bring my go c movie lo..

haha...

we also talk bout go out together go eat stem boat.. also long time din go eat lo.. ^^

haha.. i miss all those time..

my life was kinda dull this few months... everyday work.. but no payment.. so..
well, i think i can get over it de... ^^

just that i have a feeling that i will be quite busy on monday..
n btw, i missed my appointment with the dentice.. T.T i forgot bout it.. how now?? T.T
i really duno wat to do .. i also din tell my mom bout it yet,... haiz.. so how? i need to wash my teeth.. if not i will get worse..

haiz.. hope everything will be ok//

no parents day

haha, 3 days without parents.. ppl will think it is fun..
of coz, in some condition, i was fun,,..
but thn, it was hard.. dispite need to send the things and need to do a whole lots of house work...
i still need to do aii the work that my pa was doin. n it was not fun

haha... haiz... but still ok la.. i can watch wat movie i wanted to watch in the tv.. haha
n that is a nice thing..
i can sleep when i wanted to... ^^

but when your parents is not around, and because u are one of the eldest in the house, there is so much responsiblity that we need to hold on to.. and we cant really do wat we wan. coz we have sisters too... and that's y...

even it was just for few days only, i realy can feel the presure..... haha... at last i;m relise from the hard work that i did.

but comming back to all the working days, well, not much happen/// but i dun really enjoy it eighter... haha... parents back mean work.. n plenty of work.. n tired..
T.T

i cant watch the movie i wanted to watch.. n going out is really a problem.. so.. nvm la.. ^^

hope i can get over with the pileof work that is waithing for me o..

答应

今天很想用华语来表达自己。
本来今天以为是一个很好的日子，但是从早上到现在都没有一个能让我开心的东西发生。
今天早上本来以为可以去CITY　ＭＡＬＬ，　但是，没去成。结果去吃了一点东西，拿了钱，去了ＣＥＮＴＲＡＬ　买了一点东西，就回家啦。
本来想散心，但到头来啊，反而使给了自己根大压力。也没有去任何地方。
嗨！没办法啦。
哪知道，回家后，本来答应要和我一起去看戏的姐姐自己跑去看戏啦。把我丢在家。多亏我这么多天都没有约朋友去看戏，因为答应了姐姐，却被她放了飞机。。有点气。上次她叫我不要去开会，叫我陪她去买点东西，我没去开会因为要陪她，但她却把我丢在家。。。没话说了。谁叫我容易骗，　容易上当。这么容易就相信人家，相信人家所答应的东西。
从小，人家说不能给我答应，应为答应了就一定要做。可是，答应了的东西不就是一定要做的吗？我真是不明白。因为，从小人家答应我的东西，很少做到。那么答应是什么东西呢？答应难道是说了就算了吗？

有时候，我心里会想，如果你不肯定可不可以做，那就不要答应我呀，免得我伤心，然后又说我小气。我不知我还可以忍受多久，因为感觉有点透不过气来了。不知何时，但感觉就要疯了。　脑袋也有点点迟钝了。。。

昨天，
我很像是活着。
今天，
感觉不像活着。
明天，
我还会活着吗？
我自己也不清楚了。
只知道眼前出现了一条
崎岖不平的道路。
但，
我还有能力继续走下去吗？