sick..... not funb at all

this few days... i've been having tooth pain//.... which cause me to have fever for nearly one week now... then later on, now i'm having fever plus running nose... haha.. not good at all.... haiz...



but any where.... i'm going to work for the rest of the days..... at my chinese new year now... i'll be spending my days working.. i hope there will be a day where i can go to my aunty house... really hope nothing will suddenly apear....

ya, one more thing... i really dun fell like going to saturdays ocation... but haiz... nevermind la....



HAPPY NEW YEAR to every one i know lo...

gong xi gong xi...

sick....

was sick for this few days... really felt bad..
but really thankz to natalie for bring me out for porige n taking me form class to kolej..
muchas gracias

bad? good?

awake, n found my self in a forest
wondering around without knowing my path to choose
reach two doors one written good n the other bad
i reach out my hand, but i cant choose

a feeling of anger, a feeling of being hate
a feeling of betray
a feeling of hopeless,
bad is thy name
a name thats reflect lonelyness n sorrows

but, as i take my hand out,
good is unreachable
i can feel it, but it seems so far.
i pulse a moment, n turn to bad

unreachable, am i hopeless?
unreachable, am i lonely?
unreachable, do i bring sorrows?
unreachable, am i bad?

with a door leading down to the darkness
wat is behind u?
shall i continue walking o shall i stop?
fear suround me, hopes leaves me
paint in my heart, n i stop.

than i saw a golden key,
shining infront of me,
i took it, n walk to the other door.
i open the door, n i found another two door
than i suddenly realize,
all this is but my test.
shall i continue walking? o shall i stop?

working

i have been working for the past few days, in mid valley. it was ok... haha, at least i can have some extra income to cover up all the expenses here,.. which are like really a lot..
okok, anyways
i will work hard... ^^
hope i can manage my time to study n work...
ok, last of all, hope all the best to me...

n hope i will get well soon..
coz i dun feel quite well now...

cny

well, will not be able to pass my cny at home this year..
haha, but we talk bout really a lot in the room,
haha, this is wat we talk yesterday in my room with both of my roomates.

me: i think A doesn't like cny as much as we like.
B:...
A: (comes in n heard the radio) oh no, i dun like cny
Me n B: yeah.. correct
A: wat the...
B: u know Cny is really fun.
A: is just that we need to work a lot before that, just for that few days, really dun like it
me: but that is the fun part
A: well, still dun really like it

thn me n B starts talikng bout the cny

well, it never have pass my head that there is someone who actually dun really like cny....
hmm..... never think of it

study vs work

well, i was really busy recenly... doing those reading n writing plus finding a house n also planning to find a job..
well, it ended up like this

me:.. hey, how r we going to find a place to stay?
roommate: well, i have a friend who ask me, but i haven reply yet.
we: wat~! thn we better say that we wana have a look at the house n mayb can rent it..
roommate: this fast? but she wana find ppl only to stay in during july
me: well, if it is near this area, i think there will be a lot of ppl will be fighting for the place..
roommate: really?? thn i'll call her asap

well, i hope she will be able to call her soon..
wan to cut a problem now
then, we continue with a nother problem

me: hey, i wan to find a job, part time
roommate: really? then where u planing to find it?
me:well, i think midvalley, hey, anyone wan ppl to work for only one day a week?
roommate: do they wan to ask for ppl to work for just a short time?
me: not sure eh... well if not i can also work on tuesdays..
roommate: thn i think more ppl will wan ppl to work for two days i think
me: yeah.. so i'll go hunt for a job.. boy, it will be very hard for me now..
roommate: wat to do.. but i know u can do it de la.
me: hope so..

so well, i really hope u all can pray for me to find a good place to stay n a good work..
wish me luck

class

class has started recenly...
all of us r busying regester our subject...
well...
i did not get to register one of my subject..
so hopefully i can get it during this time of add n drop...

sea

i when to see the movie Enchanted..
happy to c the movie before it stop showing.
well, when we when to tanjung aru..

well, some time ppl will think that i dun like the sea...
but acutally i like all nature..
i too like the sea..
just tat i dun like those ppl who go to the sea n dirthy the place
or the crowed there...

for me, the sea is something that reflect calmness....
and sometimes shows its might, causing waves to go wild...
thats why i like the sea as it is, and not the sea side with alot of ppl walking around here n there.

well, tat day when i when to the sea side,
it was calm as it should be,...
i sat near the beach,... looking out to the sea...
so tranquel.....

there was a few youth playing football on my left side...
with me talking to my love one....
nice.. ^^

i like that feeling...
so calm n safe....

well...
mayb that is wat i like bout the sea.. n mayb thats y too
i dun like the beach now a days.......

headact

haiz....
when can i cut my hair? haiz////...
how am i going to cut my hair???
haiz....
well... hope all will get well lah..

race

today i went to the boat race.. to c la of coz... haha,
well, it is the formular f2000....
waited for the whole day but they change the time of the race due to the strong wind..
well, luckly i was lucky enough to c a glims of the speed fo the racing boat.... ^^
nice experience ... ^^
it is a long time since i write my blog... soyr for that...

this few days was really busy for me..
forst my mom was out station... n all the house work in the house need to be done by my big sis n i
including all the sending goods and the picking uo things
and the bills
and the food
n the cloth
and al.....
but the good thing bout it is that i don;t need to take care of my sisters
because they are at kampung now.. ^^
joining the intensive ruhi trainig...
hmm... really hope to joint.. but cannot leh.. no one at home now
haha.. that is the sacrifice that is need to be done when we r older.. T.T

yap, when to pulau with fanny they all when they came back... din remember did i write bout it.. but it was fun..
ya, i when out with kambing n ho ching n grace n julie n lok wa n chin ying sin n jenny..
haha, really miss to hang around with them.. ^^
all are so different now.. ^^
i think i'm one of the one that did not change much neh.. ^

ya, one more thing, yen nie n sien sien they al come back liao.. s happy leh.. ^^
haha, okie la.. is that for now, n i also need to have my nape.... ^^
hope all the best to all my friend...
and thakyou for reading my blog... although i duno who r u...
but really thankyou... ^^

nice food?

well, i when to sutera to have dinner... represending my moms company..
haha. well, i tot wat food r we going to eat...
waw..... i reawlly duno how to eat those food.. T.T
hah... but some how i manage to eat it all.. ^^
li hai neh...
btw, did many things since i came back, when to pulau with abby n fanny they all
thn go kk jln jln with them
when to c movie with kambing n louise
n yam cha with san long n eric n yuh ching
and also when yoyo with aex yuh ching louise they all...
well, my next program is go visit kwong de house n meet up with stephy.. ^&^
haha.... ^^

lonely? happy? busy? sad?

lonely, happy, busy, sad, all this are feeling ...
but sometime, there are all kind of feelings around us that is contridiction to each other,
but, some times, all this feelings appear because there are lack of another feeling.
for example, we felt sad because we are lack of ther feeling of happy...

everyday, we may come across a lot of feeling, one minit we can be happy, thn another minit, we felt sad...
but because of all this feelings, our life become even more meaningful, more excithing, n more rich..
sometime we dun wan a certain feeling to appear, we felt sad, n we dun like the feeling, we felt angry..
but we never realize that, sometime, because of this feelings, we learn how to grow, we learn to overcome those feelings

and than, as we grow, we gain more n more expirent in dealing with our feelings,....
but, some times, it happen, when we cannot handle our feelings. and suddenly we burst like a bubble....

think of wat we wan to do, is it worth o not doing that thing,,, ... and thn, u may find out thatwe will we more calm, and the ability to control our feeling is even more....
and avantually, with all this better feelings, calmness, we gain more n more knowledge, and thn, we r able to widen out our knowledge n our contact...

overcoming our own feelings is from our own iniciative. but we must remember we must sometime stop n rethink on wat we have done, to make sure that we are on the right track.

gambate

back home

i have been back home for this few days.. haha, only can say, it is fun...
will surely enjoy all my time here... ^^
miss my home

walking alone

yesterday i went to midvalley alone.
not because i was alone, but i was i bit tired of reading too long, plus i need to go in search of a present...
haha,
at first i did not wan to go to midvalley, but there are some senior who will go to mid valley,
so i ended up going with them untill mid valley. but i did not go jln jln wit them., one is because they are going back home..
haha, they go midvalley just to sit the ktm..
okok, continue with the story,
well, after gething off the car, i went in search of my goal, present.
well, first i went to find my sisters present, well, it is a pair of earings,
so i noe the rite place to find it..
thn search for the second present,
that took really long time.. so i prend my time window shopping, c ppl, walk around, c the design of a place, get inspiration,
well, and many things, but at last i found the present,..
i think it is nice, but not sure la....

well, ppl think it is lonely to walk alone, but i like doing it,
haha, mayb u wil think it is funny,
but i really do think it is interenting,
well, of coz walking with friends is fun, and u can play round, but i like walking alone, coz it gives us time to observe wat we always mis, like ppl, place, the design, all are put in effort. somehow, i think all the decoration is for ppl like me to c..
as i was walking, i suddenly come across ppl dancing, indian dance of coz. thn suddenly i realize that how amazing as our country, well, back in sabah, i do c indian dance, but i mean is really a different enviromen,
i look around the crowd that was enjoying the show, they are all kinds of people, all with happy looks on their faces, looking n enjoying the performance,
although there are just 4 ppl dancing, and conducting the whole program, but it was really a nice dance.
i put my senf as a visitor of that place, and how amaze i felt, how happy i felt,
and how the performance took away all my worries.
i stay there for quite sometime, as ppl gather around the stage to c them dance, ( they must have practive a long time to remember so many dance with only 4 ppl running the whole program.)
i walk away from the performance b4 the performance ended,
i when to the back stage to c how is it, when i reach the back stage, the performance already end, but i saw happy n tired faces. i think they must felt happy, n think that all the practice they have been going through is just nothing.

as i hope on the bus to go back to the uni, i start to look at ppls faces again, happy once, quite once, tired once, cheerful once, friendly once...

sometime, when we are tired o reach a state where we think we cannot handle anymore, well, take a walk, enjoy the senery, and mayb from there, u can meet all the happy faces that mayb they can brighten your day and steal away ur worries.

p/s, remember, to be happy too, u never know that mayb u have refresh someone who is in trouble too.... ^^

pre camp

time passes by fast, this is something i always say,
tat other day, i when to a pre camp at balakong,
i when there without knowing who will i meet,
o what will i be doing there,
i know i will surely meet some ppl that i had already know,
n that made me happy,
but i reall don't have any idea who will i be meeting when i reach there,
o what am i going to do over there,

going there, taking the bus n the ktm, rail way of coz,
as i am waithing alone in the station,
althougt there are many ppl waiting wit me,
but traveling alone is something that sometime can make u feel lonely.

at i hope in to the ktm, how am i amize towards my self,
how long had it been when i am in kl, the capital of my country,
and yet how empty i felt despite all the ppl and places i go..

when i reaches my destination, waithing is something i always been doing,
n reaching the traning center, without knowing anything,
i step in to the hall, and saw lots of faces looking at me,
"huey ye"
a voice so familar, i look at her n give her a smile,
thank goodness, there is a welcoming face showed at me, to make me feel more calm,
i sat beside her, n she start to introduce all the ppl around me,
n without i knowing it, i started to make friends. n i am so happy bout it.

how amazing human is,
freinds, family, ppl,
was once not know to each other, but some connecting pull them together, n made them something call friend,
how amazing it is, that we human can be link in such a way,
we never know, that mayb the ppl that we call stranger, may turn out to be something that we call friend in the future, we never know..

just like my days in precamp, i got to noe ppl, funny ppl, fun ppl,
made a chat with them, learn a chant with them, place n study together, consult with them, and i learn many things, a lot of things,
things that i may not have learn,
how to conduct, how to talk,

we are growing everyday, some may grow fast, and some slow,
but sometime, with just some help from the group of ppl we can learn more thn wat we are able to learn in usual..
before going there, i was scare, but coming back, i know that i have grow, i have learn many things, i became more mature now,
but we must not forget those who help us in the process of our growth,
this group of ppl that always been out side helping us, teaching us,
there are once someone that had never ment anything to us, nor that have any realtionship with us,
but with just this words, they became someone that mayb can change our life,
mayb can made us someone better next time,
someone we know that we can always count on when we have problems,

this people are given this name by us: FRIEND

thankyou i would like to wish to them, thankyou for taking care of me when i need it, thankyou for always helping me,n listening to me. but most of all, thankyou for being my FRIEND

friends

i was chatting with my friend.. and suddenly i reliaze how important they r to me..
i really felt happy after chatting with them..
aslthough i dun have any problem.. but chatting with them just make me happy..
thank you all my freind to acompany me to walk in this path that leads us to our future..
i really thank you all to brighten my day..
thankz my friends.

Book 7

a nice n hard book to read..
well, i just come back from intensive learning .. for book 7,
well i have not finish the whole book yet..
well, next friday i need to continue the book, well, i really hope that i can finish it,..
\i really look forward to it...
well, gambatee lo

what do you think bout it?

as days passes by, without us knowing,
i don't really know wat is that i have been doing..
there was a trip, un to the hill,
where frashness is all around you..
we played, sang beautiful songs, and act funny drama..
and sad once too..
but in sometime, i don't really know was going on...

today, i got a news, a new that shock me...
n i din know wat to do..
#
but i know, life after death, is much more happier,
and i should not be sad..
but somehow, after thinking of the two kid, i feth sad

mayb i din wan them to past the days i have been passing...
but, wat can i do..
coz i'm just an outsider,
looking at all the happenings..
and couldn't do a thing...

i was happy, n din really think much yesterday, and the days before that...
but after this incident, i suddenly realise,
how weak are we,
and how short our time is...

sometime it make me scare, but i know,
by just being scare, won help anything...##

there are still plenty of things i can do, i can help
i can give to this socialty...
and i know i don't really have mucch time eighter..
when i feel that i am able to go trough all this,
then i can get my answer..

by then., the only thing i can do now
is ...
make every time worth as they were ment to be...
not only to me, but to every one...

days at frazer hill....

last week end, i went to frazer hill..
it ic our cc trip.. n it was vry vry vry vry fun..
haha..... ^^
althoughi did not get much sleep.. ^^
but nvm la... that is wat i need to pay for, if i wanted to go to the trip..
but i did not regard.. ^^
and was really very happy of it.. ^^
haha.. at least ido meet alot of friends... seniors,and those same badge with me... ^^
haha, we had many fun they, we did explore race, and basicly, we when to many many many place... walking n jogging n running of coz.. but overall, fun... ^^
thn nite we play mafia, and haha, come ppl got addicted with in, ya, at night time, we play games too.. many many games.. ^^
haha, but our group din really win many things... ^^
but no problem, our group always say, the mosyt important is the way we pass this trip, the most things we take is photo, and the most things we see is senery,,,....
haha, cool huh.
then after that at night we did something like talent show, and it was totaly funny... kanasai titanic, tat really fulfill the title, then pearl harbour, that was really touching, and the inner meaning was really good... it made ppl cry too... as for my group, we did journey to the west.. haha, funny one.. we suppors to do something that made ppl cry and cry and cry, but at last, we ended up doping something that was really funny, the attaim to make something sad turn to be something really funny... but no problem .... coz laughter is the best medican.. ^^
ya, one more thing, i got the best K LE FE girls award... haha, i was "BAi GU JING" read in chinese plase... haha, not my name is bai gu already/... haiz,... ^^ but , haha, it was ok..
^^
well until now, the photo i will post it soon, when i got the photos..

coldness.. or refreshing?

rain.... water that falls from the sky,
it brings freshness and moisture
to the land they fall on
giving life and hope to every being....

as rain come, it brings along a gift,
it is a gift from Heaven,
more precious than anything ...
it brings life to the land.

but sometimes,
rain brings more then hope,
it brings sorrow, and emptiness
that makes people weep as it falls.

sometime i start to wonder,
what are you...
are you a gift , a bounty that was given from heaven,
or are you a reminder, telling us to be think carefully

as i look out the window to the falling rain,
i felt happy because it rain, at last..
but i do know someway in my heart,
theres a slide feel of sorrow.

you might say that it is the nature of the rain..
and there are no one to ask to...
but some how i still wonder,
are you my gift, or my reminder

are you coldness.. or refreshing