everyday seems the same...
but i really hope something different.,...
now, one year has come to an end...
some times i wonder, have i done wat i wan to do?
o have i not?

ppl has reach thier goals, but have i?
oh, another more year,
i have grown... but am i really learn that much wat i should learn?

another new year, another brand new wishes,
but have i fulfill all my wishes now?
i look at the young ones,
oh my, how big i have grown...

another new year, means another wish
can i fulfill them? i dun't noe.

have i walk the path i wanted?
but i don't have the answer.
all i can do, is continue walking, until i reach my goal...

happy new year

my day

today, i was so tired. i been teaching the whole day, plus my leg has blister..
T.T
tomolo duno how to go work
whole my leg pain, coz yesterday de high heels.
haiz.
tomolo is winter day.
how a?
duno how
hope can go home early.
one more thing, i haven buy my cloth for working..
die lo
duno wat to wear...
haiz......................

start work

i started work last week..
it is been i think two weeks from now.
feeling tired...
i mean vry tired
hais./.....
^^
but still ok la i think..
christmas, hope got holiday
but i scare dun have o
haiz

my house in a mess now, my mom making pinata.
hope can help her, but cannot
well, nvm la... ^^
hahaha

hope i can stand walking to work

ya, tty is going to ns, hope he will be ok lo.. ^^
jia you

so tired~!~!~!~!

so tired from exam....
haiz
but stil.. jia you o.... ^^
few more days to go~!~!~1

wat to do?

sometime, i dun think i can stand the house...
wat am i talking about?
i also not sure...
but i dun think i like the house anymore..
everyday, only they talk that wat we need to do..
when they ask us wat we wan, but, when we say what we one,
our voice is being cover up with all their words
wat could i say, sometime, i see things much more then them
coz tat is wat i am good of, but they only listen to what other ppl say
n dun believe their own daughter...

sometime, i mean all the time, i feel lonely,
but wat can i do? nothing
y\? what can i do?
i am sad, yes, vry sad,
i duno how can i be happy.
i am depresse...... i duno what should i do
when can i got the believe of my family?

how? how?
life without a listener, life without a ppl to listen
lonely... dark
cry in the dark
but what could i do?
can anyone tell me?
i duno....

a life with family, but i dun feel them
life with friends, but i feel lonely
wat can i do?
i don't know...
just feel to voice my voice now....
but i noe i cannot.

thinking deeply

i just finish my convocation yesterday, but i dun feel a thing now.
i duno wat is happening to me now..
i really duno...

bad luck?

sometimes, i been thinking, do u believe in bad luck?
well, yesterday me day is bad luck
guess wat?

well, i woke up at 8.. not that i wanted to... but i was wake up by the voice of my grandma.. not forgetting that i always wakes when there is voice..
haha, well, i when to sleep at 2.30 n wake up at 8, so guess wat, i ran out from room n sleep at sofa.. (bad idea)
coz not til 10 minit, my grandma come asking me y slep at the sofa...
well.. my answer was so stupid... coz the room was hot.... hahaha

thn my mom say that we need to go out to go for raya..
wat~!~! raya, when i'm having sore through???
har? wat to do... just eat la./...
thn it started to rain
n my pa bring us to go servey, coz my mom wans to buy some paper..
when i reach home.. it is 4.. children class..
i thought i don't need to go.. mana tahu, my sister wans to bring the children to park.. which means i need to drive,... duno y my sister dun't wan to drive.....
thn hor, the car cannot start...
stupidcar.
thn play at there la...
thn come back time the car also cannot start.
again.
thn the arlam when off..... wah.,.. everyone was looking at us.... ..
wah... i so hope i was not there
thn my dad came...
so happy..
but i need to send the children back home... the worst part is that my big sister no need to follow, coz she dun noe the place... wat the....
i reach home at 7.30. guess wat, my tuition starts at 7.30
meaning to say i am late..
i reach tuition at 8.20
wah.. not yet eat my dinner..
T.T
study till 9.30 reach home
eat things thn i doze off at sofa .. coz too tired. my big sister calls me to sleep at my room
but guess wat, i was dreaming n i was scolding her..
wah... my family laught at me...
so cham o...
T.T

hope this few days will be better for me~!~!~

hope? light?

i'm lost now...
duno where to go
walking alone..
yes, i dun't reallt noe how to comunicate with ppl.
i basicly noe nothing.
so?
my life goes trought many things, some terrible things that i dun wish other will walk tat path
there was no helping hand, n i face everyday with doub.
wat can i do?

to talk where no ppl is listening, how can i communicate?
i really don't know.
passing each day is a pain
ya, no feelings of the real me review in my face
how fake is it?
yet, i been say, by almost everyone i noe,
but have anyone really listen b for wat i feel b4 telling me wat i need to do??

i use to think that i will have a sholder for me to lean to...
but i found none.
wat i go across each day, my problems,
i dun think any one noe....
hahaha...... i laught at my self
how useless am i.....

useless

galz?

yesterday when to kk....
haha.. bunch of galz....
so will be vry vry vry funny coz gals do talk
when i was walking with them, i started thinking... sometimes, gals are really important to galz..
haha.... funny huh...
yesterdat, whole kk was pack...
coz hari raya was near, n tat day is depavali.
as i was looking at the streams of car, and look at everyones faces,
i think, wow, this is such a busy place, but once i glance at the blue sea, i felt a different way,
sometimes, life can be vry busy, but in all this busy times, there always be a place where it is co calm, a place where it can bring a new hope for you.

well, i spend most of my time window shopping, and it was a vry long time since i window shop,
i really miss those times, when wat i have is only time....
but now, the only thing i dun have is also time..
haha.....

btw, yesterday as i came back, i saw behind my house, a flower, in the middle of the bushes,
so nice n beautiful, it refreshes my day.... i think , i will refreshes ur day as well.....

a day?

wat a day..
everyday studying..
hope everything will go smothly...
jia you o me..~!~!~!

new look

a brand new look for a bran new me.....
haha... hope so la...
but i been thinking many things this few days..
haiz
i dun noe wat to say... meaning speachless.
but i just will live my like usual...
change my attitude a bit to more better..
hope i can make it
n be happy,
really happy....

my wish for my self, pass my exam with flying colours
n be healty.

a day of living.. a day of life

ppl always think wat they can do after they grow up.......
i hope to think so.... but to tell the truth, i'm a afrait to think....
not because i dun wat to think, but i'm scare to think.
i really hope i do not have any problems, but i cannot deny that the fact,
i really have problem.
i dun dare to face the truth, i dun dare to ask.
i fear that wat i fear most come true.
i always think in the middle of the night, wat if wat i fear most come true?
what will i do?
how will my life be?
wat can i do?

living a day, means a life to me.
i really hope everything will be ok with me.

today just have a fight with my family....
haiz.. now, i dun feel like anything.
i really duno who can i trun to now....
use to hide myself in my own coner. now i start to ask my self, when can i go out?
i seldom show my feelings, happy o sad,
a smilling face was on my face,
but wat is whithin? i my self not sure.
but i noe i need to be strong, but i do hope a for break.
i hope for a sholder, i hope for a life

hope i will be ok, hope i will be fine,
hope i will be strong enuf to face everything
i noe, where i have a hope, there will be a life..
well, living.. is life

moon cake festival

today is moon cake festival...
yeah.....
means nice food, nice drink n all......
hihi.... although feel bit not happy today... plus now aa n in major pain, plus today exam is 100% terrible, but i think i will be ok la
just tat i canot go out... T.T
haiz... nvm la....
happy moon cake festival lo..... ^^
to everyone n also most important me~!~!~!~!~!

another day

haiz...... time flys.... n i'm going to sit for my exam next month..
not kidding... NEXT MONTH..
haiz..... die lo me... duno how o... now starting have nightmares.... cannot sleep well... ~!~!
my nightmare is coming near...
am i prepare? am i?
now is my exam time... hmm.. ppl must think wat am i doing here now? shoulden i be studying now?
but the point is i been reading for like whole day liao....
need a bit rest.... so come in fron the com just to update my blog....
n c any news to 8 also... haha
btw, i cannot just sit infron the books rite?
i been sleeping with them... basicly with books 24 hours... (i'm nuts)
so need to get of the books a while....
i'm feeling not well now... a bit scare of my health////... hope nothing bad happen to me... (choi choi)
lastly, wish every one who sitting for exam.. jia you jia you n jia you o....
especially ME,..~!!~~!~!~!~!
jia you o!~!~!~!~!~

btw, i just recover my chat box... feel free so tell me anything there...
press tag.. n u can c the chatter box

at last..

at last fihish my seni project..
haha.. din sleep for 24 hours...
miss those time...
all come together n help each other........
n finishing the art work...
so happy...
hahahahaha...
gong xi gong xi my self coz done my project.. ^^
hahahahhahahahhaah

...

teacher just told me tat i need to pass up my project at next web... die.... lo.......
haiz... jia you o me

today

since a long time that i din write my blog..
hahaha
today not much happen... but now i duno how to finish my art project... omg.......
haiz
i have only one week but i haven finish half...
i duno wat to do... so fan o....
T.T
but anyway... i need to jia you....
jia you jia you o me..~!~!~!

movie

wah...~!~! now only i know that sometimes, cartoons will be also quite scary....
haha.... starting to do my art now... busy busy busy,... T.T
really tiring....
but i sure can do it on time...
tomolo is the choose life thinging...
haiz,,,,.......
start so early..... duno can wake up o not..
thn hor, duno how to go somemore...
i think tomolo wil be ok de la.... ^^
+hope so.......

thinking.....

hmm... i'm keep on thinking... so many things to think... but no conclution....
hahah,....
u noe wat i'm thinking? i duno wat colour to put in to my art work....
haiz........
noe just slimply filling in the space
n the colour looks so stupid... =='
well, life is still the same.. just with the presure of STPM.....
haiz...
starting to get some pimples.... haha.. some konon...
today i came across a funny thing. i when to one of the govement derpartment to get some poster, thn i need to take some books too. so i went for the second time... n guess wat, i got scolding from the pegawai there..
haha.... but lastly he still let me take..... luckly.. if not a, tat reeve must belanja me lo...
well... one good news is that now i dont need to go for monthly check ups after my stay at the hospital... but instate, i only need to go for 1/2 year checkup... so happy....
hope i will get healthier.....
hope everyone i noe gets healthier....
n my family too... ^^

wah~!~!

haha..... since a long time i din come n visit my blog...
haha
every things seems ok la...
but just tat my result is terrible
haiz....
wat to do..... i prefer taking care of my health now
if not a... haiz.... going always to the hospital
not fun at all.....
so which one i wana choose? of cao health la...
but i hope to get good result at my finale exam o....
hahaha
think too much
btw, i'm gona finish my exam tomolo!~!~!~!~!
yeah... goood news for me...
but no holidays..
coz got extra class...WAT THE
n during extra class i need to go to hospital...... haiz~!~!~!