everyday seems the same...
but i really hope something different.,...
now, one year has come to an end...
some times i wonder, have i done wat i wan to do?
o have i not?

ppl has reach thier goals, but have i?
oh, another more year,
i have grown... but am i really learn that much wat i should learn?

another new year, another brand new wishes,
but have i fulfill all my wishes now?
i look at the young ones,
oh my, how big i have grown...

another new year, means another wish
can i fulfill them? i dun't noe.

have i walk the path i wanted?
but i don't have the answer.
all i can do, is continue walking, until i reach my goal...

happy new year

my day

today, i was so tired. i been teaching the whole day, plus my leg has blister..
T.T
tomolo duno how to go work
whole my leg pain, coz yesterday de high heels.
haiz.
tomolo is winter day.
how a?
duno how
hope can go home early.
one more thing, i haven buy my cloth for working..
die lo
duno wat to wear...
haiz......................

start work

i started work last week..
it is been i think two weeks from now.
feeling tired...
i mean vry tired
hais./.....
^^
but still ok la i think..
christmas, hope got holiday
but i scare dun have o
haiz

my house in a mess now, my mom making pinata.
hope can help her, but cannot
well, nvm la... ^^
hahaha

hope i can stand walking to work

ya, tty is going to ns, hope he will be ok lo.. ^^
jia you

so tired~!~!~!~!

so tired from exam....
haiz
but stil.. jia you o.... ^^
few more days to go~!~!~1

wat to do?

sometime, i dun think i can stand the house...
wat am i talking about?
i also not sure...
but i dun think i like the house anymore..
everyday, only they talk that wat we need to do..
when they ask us wat we wan, but, when we say what we one,
our voice is being cover up with all their words
wat could i say, sometime, i see things much more then them
coz tat is wat i am good of, but they only listen to what other ppl say
n dun believe their own daughter...

sometime, i mean all the time, i feel lonely,
but wat can i do? nothing
y\? what can i do?
i am sad, yes, vry sad,
i duno how can i be happy.
i am depresse...... i duno what should i do
when can i got the believe of my family?

how? how?
life without a listener, life without a ppl to listen
lonely... dark
cry in the dark
but what could i do?
can anyone tell me?
i duno....

a life with family, but i dun feel them
life with friends, but i feel lonely
wat can i do?
i don't know...
just feel to voice my voice now....
but i noe i cannot.

thinking deeply

i just finish my convocation yesterday, but i dun feel a thing now.
i duno wat is happening to me now..
i really duno...

bad luck?

sometimes, i been thinking, do u believe in bad luck?
well, yesterday me day is bad luck
guess wat?

well, i woke up at 8.. not that i wanted to... but i was wake up by the voice of my grandma.. not forgetting that i always wakes when there is voice..
haha, well, i when to sleep at 2.30 n wake up at 8, so guess wat, i ran out from room n sleep at sofa.. (bad idea)
coz not til 10 minit, my grandma come asking me y slep at the sofa...
well.. my answer was so stupid... coz the room was hot.... hahaha

thn my mom say that we need to go out to go for raya..
wat~!~! raya, when i'm having sore through???
har? wat to do... just eat la./...
thn it started to rain
n my pa bring us to go servey, coz my mom wans to buy some paper..
when i reach home.. it is 4.. children class..
i thought i don't need to go.. mana tahu, my sister wans to bring the children to park.. which means i need to drive,... duno y my sister dun't wan to drive.....
thn hor, the car cannot start...
stupidcar.
thn play at there la...
thn come back time the car also cannot start.
again.
thn the arlam when off..... wah.,.. everyone was looking at us.... ..
wah... i so hope i was not there
thn my dad came...
so happy..
but i need to send the children back home... the worst part is that my big sister no need to follow, coz she dun noe the place... wat the....
i reach home at 7.30. guess wat, my tuition starts at 7.30
meaning to say i am late..
i reach tuition at 8.20
wah.. not yet eat my dinner..
T.T
study till 9.30 reach home
eat things thn i doze off at sofa .. coz too tired. my big sister calls me to sleep at my room
but guess wat, i was dreaming n i was scolding her..
wah... my family laught at me...
so cham o...
T.T

hope this few days will be better for me~!~!~

hope? light?

i'm lost now...
duno where to go
walking alone..
yes, i dun't reallt noe how to comunicate with ppl.
i basicly noe nothing.
so?
my life goes trought many things, some terrible things that i dun wish other will walk tat path
there was no helping hand, n i face everyday with doub.
wat can i do?

to talk where no ppl is listening, how can i communicate?
i really don't know.
passing each day is a pain
ya, no feelings of the real me review in my face
how fake is it?
yet, i been say, by almost everyone i noe,
but have anyone really listen b for wat i feel b4 telling me wat i need to do??

i use to think that i will have a sholder for me to lean to...
but i found none.
wat i go across each day, my problems,
i dun think any one noe....
hahaha...... i laught at my self
how useless am i.....

useless

galz?

yesterday when to kk....
haha.. bunch of galz....
so will be vry vry vry funny coz gals do talk
when i was walking with them, i started thinking... sometimes, gals are really important to galz..
haha.... funny huh...
yesterdat, whole kk was pack...
coz hari raya was near, n tat day is depavali.
as i was looking at the streams of car, and look at everyones faces,
i think, wow, this is such a busy place, but once i glance at the blue sea, i felt a different way,
sometimes, life can be vry busy, but in all this busy times, there always be a place where it is co calm, a place where it can bring a new hope for you.

well, i spend most of my time window shopping, and it was a vry long time since i window shop,
i really miss those times, when wat i have is only time....
but now, the only thing i dun have is also time..
haha.....

btw, yesterday as i came back, i saw behind my house, a flower, in the middle of the bushes,
so nice n beautiful, it refreshes my day.... i think , i will refreshes ur day as well.....

a day?

wat a day..
everyday studying..
hope everything will go smothly...
jia you o me..~!~!~!

new look

a brand new look for a bran new me.....
haha... hope so la...
but i been thinking many things this few days..
haiz
i dun noe wat to say... meaning speachless.
but i just will live my like usual...
change my attitude a bit to more better..
hope i can make it
n be happy,
really happy....

my wish for my self, pass my exam with flying colours
n be healty.

a day of living.. a day of life

ppl always think wat they can do after they grow up.......
i hope to think so.... but to tell the truth, i'm a afrait to think....
not because i dun wat to think, but i'm scare to think.
i really hope i do not have any problems, but i cannot deny that the fact,
i really have problem.
i dun dare to face the truth, i dun dare to ask.
i fear that wat i fear most come true.
i always think in the middle of the night, wat if wat i fear most come true?
what will i do?
how will my life be?
wat can i do?

living a day, means a life to me.
i really hope everything will be ok with me.

today just have a fight with my family....
haiz.. now, i dun feel like anything.
i really duno who can i trun to now....
use to hide myself in my own coner. now i start to ask my self, when can i go out?
i seldom show my feelings, happy o sad,
a smilling face was on my face,
but wat is whithin? i my self not sure.
but i noe i need to be strong, but i do hope a for break.
i hope for a sholder, i hope for a life

hope i will be ok, hope i will be fine,
hope i will be strong enuf to face everything
i noe, where i have a hope, there will be a life..
well, living.. is life

moon cake festival

today is moon cake festival...
yeah.....
means nice food, nice drink n all......
hihi.... although feel bit not happy today... plus now aa n in major pain, plus today exam is 100% terrible, but i think i will be ok la
just tat i canot go out... T.T
haiz... nvm la....
happy moon cake festival lo..... ^^
to everyone n also most important me~!~!~!~!~!

another day

haiz...... time flys.... n i'm going to sit for my exam next month..
not kidding... NEXT MONTH..
haiz..... die lo me... duno how o... now starting have nightmares.... cannot sleep well... ~!~!
my nightmare is coming near...
am i prepare? am i?
now is my exam time... hmm.. ppl must think wat am i doing here now? shoulden i be studying now?
but the point is i been reading for like whole day liao....
need a bit rest.... so come in fron the com just to update my blog....
n c any news to 8 also... haha
btw, i cannot just sit infron the books rite?
i been sleeping with them... basicly with books 24 hours... (i'm nuts)
so need to get of the books a while....
i'm feeling not well now... a bit scare of my health////... hope nothing bad happen to me... (choi choi)
lastly, wish every one who sitting for exam.. jia you jia you n jia you o....
especially ME,..~!!~~!~!~!~!
jia you o!~!~!~!~!~

btw, i just recover my chat box... feel free so tell me anything there...
press tag.. n u can c the chatter box

at last..

at last fihish my seni project..
haha.. din sleep for 24 hours...
miss those time...
all come together n help each other........
n finishing the art work...
so happy...
hahahahaha...
gong xi gong xi my self coz done my project.. ^^
hahahahhahahahhaah

...

teacher just told me tat i need to pass up my project at next web... die.... lo.......
haiz... jia you o me

today

since a long time that i din write my blog..
hahaha
today not much happen... but now i duno how to finish my art project... omg.......
haiz
i have only one week but i haven finish half...
i duno wat to do... so fan o....
T.T
but anyway... i need to jia you....
jia you jia you o me..~!~!~!

movie

wah...~!~! now only i know that sometimes, cartoons will be also quite scary....
haha.... starting to do my art now... busy busy busy,... T.T
really tiring....
but i sure can do it on time...
tomolo is the choose life thinging...
haiz,,,,.......
start so early..... duno can wake up o not..
thn hor, duno how to go somemore...
i think tomolo wil be ok de la.... ^^
+hope so.......

thinking.....

hmm... i'm keep on thinking... so many things to think... but no conclution....
hahah,....
u noe wat i'm thinking? i duno wat colour to put in to my art work....
haiz........
noe just slimply filling in the space
n the colour looks so stupid... =='
well, life is still the same.. just with the presure of STPM.....
haiz...
starting to get some pimples.... haha.. some konon...
today i came across a funny thing. i when to one of the govement derpartment to get some poster, thn i need to take some books too. so i went for the second time... n guess wat, i got scolding from the pegawai there..
haha.... but lastly he still let me take..... luckly.. if not a, tat reeve must belanja me lo...
well... one good news is that now i dont need to go for monthly check ups after my stay at the hospital... but instate, i only need to go for 1/2 year checkup... so happy....
hope i will get healthier.....
hope everyone i noe gets healthier....
n my family too... ^^

wah~!~!

haha..... since a long time i din come n visit my blog...
haha
every things seems ok la...
but just tat my result is terrible
haiz....
wat to do..... i prefer taking care of my health now
if not a... haiz.... going always to the hospital
not fun at all.....
so which one i wana choose? of cao health la...
but i hope to get good result at my finale exam o....
hahaha
think too much
btw, i'm gona finish my exam tomolo!~!~!~!~!
yeah... goood news for me...
but no holidays..
coz got extra class...WAT THE
n during extra class i need to go to hospital...... haiz~!~!~!

at last

at last i done reformating my com..... haha.. can on9 as usual liao/.... so happy,....
ya, tomolo is my driving test.. so scare... hope can do all the best..
hahaha...... hope i dun stress up.. >< Lol//...
wish me luck lo..... ~~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!

hospital...

i hate going to the hospital.... but i still need to continue going till ogos...
not sure is it till ogos leh.. mayb will be longer
T.T
u noe, i am so sick of going there... it will take me the whole day.
but wat can i do?
i am sick, n yet i am those type which not really now how to take care of my self.
so, sick, still going to school as usual. i think not many ppl noe that i'm sick..
hahaha...
hmm, today i did a type of test where i have so many wires on my head
n then they let me c something like a point(but much more bigger) then the back ground keep on moving
n let me dizzy..
later on the doctor put another two wires behind my ears, n let me listen to some really irritating noise.
so guess, my graph goes up n donw. haha... that doctor say mayb it is ok, coz i was irritated by the sound
i really hope so... few days of break
thn i need to do to mr scan(if i'm not wrong)
haiz... tat will take me the whole dfay.
not fun
byw, i took my ping pong n interact pic. haha, they look funny. but nvm la.... ^^
good news, i got band 5 in my muet.... so happy liao...
hahahahahahah
ok.i need to go momom lo.....
later will more sick.. haha

???????

wat days is this few days... many things happen at school. n i sure know many ppl had read o hear bout it.
haha.... somethings i start thinking, y things like this will happen? aren't we 19 o 20 years old ppl? mayb it is the time for us to c things in a different way. sometime i feel that at school, small things looks big for us, but for those ppl who had gone to work n deal with other ppl at socialty, i think this is just a small problems... ( thats wat my mom say usualy)
well, i admit it that i'm not those type who can forget things easily, o go over one things tat easily. i also has temper, n a bad one....
haiz, need to change tat.
just tat i been thinking many things this few days after so many thing occor,....... i need to stay calm, i think i really need. many things i think, " xi guan jiu hao la"
mayb once u have been use to it, then, it will not hurt tat much, o be a big thing to u...

yes

tomolo start schooll.....
din play much at this holiday, coz was in the hospital..
but i went for movies n also the fun fair..
hihi
so happy.. ^^

i'm here again

there are so many things i wan to say, but i dun noe how to say...
well, this few days is exam... but i'm sure i will not do well in this exam...
haiz... not tat i did not study,
but if u r at my house, n u can study, i really respact u...
every day it is only fighting,
wat kind of house is this??
well, my sickness is getting bad, n i dun noe how bad it will go...
hope that i will get well soon.
i did not when to the doctors, because no ppl bring me there.
haiz, i really dun noe wat kind of life is this
today, i canot c well, my eye has some problem, sometime, i'm really scare that i dun not have time for this world..
i reallt scare....
so i really need to appriciat life...
all that i can life....
although there are not many ppl noe bout this... o really care bout this... there is some one who care bout me, but their hadr work also have its border....
well, the only thing i have for my self now is hope. n hope i will live on.

hinese exam ... so headact.....

today is my chinese exam... so headact o me......
u ne, i actuay fnish red... but i dun remember a thing... ithink now is the time for me to be hard working already... haiz....
so, today's paper is like OMG... u ne at i mean...
i meet cikgu lim, my class teacher... he doesn't look ok... i think because i did bad in his paper... haiz.. irealy wuld not like taht to happen ....
s now feeling hrrible, terrilble...
plus, all the com in the librrary now is been ue by my friend to play games.... so u now how i feel now...
but wat cani do.. forgt t tell u where i am now...
i am sti in schol library,,....
playig the comm...
ot fun at all....
will be going out asap...
hrgh....
i really pe so...
b4 the teacher come scolding me .....
^^
just for now...

p.s my cm was strick by lightning... so this is how i enden up here now~!~!~~!

wat a day

haha, today i start off my day by calling people up from bed... i call him from 8.00 morning until 9.00 am... one hour, i call to his hp... but no answer, thn at last, i call to his house.. this of coz made him wake....
haha, but he is already late to go for tuition...
thn after that, i help abby to find for ho ching.. haha.. tat also took me a long time..
thn i when to tuition. study there till 11.30 n after that, me, abby, ting yao, ho ching, mei choon when to eat pizza.
haha
still ok la.. i n abby belanja ho ching.
later on, i went to find for mothers day present.
ting yao is having a hard time choosing his present..
haha.. we choose till like 4.00. then, we go damai to but stuff for de cake... T.T i cannot bake cake for my mom. so sad.
thn i when to teach children class of coz..
haha, they are still so cute...
thn here am i, on da com.. ^^

hope tomolo's mothers day will be fun ~!~!~!

其实很多男孩都不知道……

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子在冲他们发火后自己却转过身不断啜泣。
其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子从来不会真正生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。
其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对她自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，她是怕你做错事情。
你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火，不会冲你撒娇，不会让你哄她--因为在别人面前她都是淑女。
你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，即使让她生气也不会超过2天！

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，
而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她……

于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她……
于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她……
于是，你们总莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福……
要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美~

因为她喜欢你，所以才偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。
因为她喜欢你，所以才会生你的气；而又是因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气那么久。

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，很容易就碰伤摔碎。
你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害！

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，因为真正值得让她哭的那个人根本舍不得让她哭……
她会很矜持，她会很骄傲，她会很冷淡，她总是嘴里说着“你走开”，心里却一直叫你留下。
请竖起你的耳朵，也请打开你的心，去听她内心真正的呼唤吧，而不是她嘴里的口是心非！
她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身；当侧身而过的时候，你看不见她的泪，那是滂沱在心里的泪~

如果你喜欢她，请多陪陪她；如果你喜欢她，请多宠宠她；如果你喜欢她，请多让让她……
如果你真的喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是一种呐喊！
请你张开臂膀拥抱她！
在爱情世界里，你们总是彼此伤害着，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈，爱到轰轰烈烈！
可是，爱情没有孰对孰错，更没有你比我多我比你少的概念。
你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够，不要试图让彼此受伤，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。
你们彼此相爱需要的是温暖、是幸福、是甜蜜、是快乐，而不是伤害。

不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，更不要什么话都不讲就漠然离去。
要知道，当你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光……
越是安静，战火就越传，这是冷战，也是彼此的伤害。
无论以后怎么的复合，那些伤口是曾经存在的，是你怎么也抹不去的……

请给她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。
她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠、转身的无声安静。
请记住，相爱的人不要宣战，因为带来的伤害超出你的预计。
也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没什么是你接受不了的，只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。

那么她所有的小性子、所有的坏脾气、所有的臭毛病在你眼里都是撒娇。
也请记住，她喜欢你，需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她真心话。
她只是想你宠她，想你抱她……

muet>?

today is my muet speaking.
hmm... terrible o...
haiz.. wat to do....
but , still ok la... ( i hope so)
today i settle my tshirt..... hope it will turn out rite... i really hope.. n the time.. hmm...
haiz.. the library thing some more... headact....
so wat can i do?

mky birthday

yesterday was my birthday. at first, i din hope for anything... coz not much ppl wish me at school...
but when i reach home, chun ping call me to wish me,... thn i got many msg from my old old friend... haha.. they all wish me happy birthday..
afterthat, my family bring me to have dinner outside..... so happy. my pa also give me a tilam... so nice,,,, i can sleep well now.
thn i when out with my friends to easy way at beverly........ haha.... just chat chat n talk talk there. thn cut cake...
afterthat, i when to tanjung aru with ting yao, tet san, n yew. haha... we walk to the beach,..... so nice..... n cute too... ^^]
thn i went home... that is how i celebrate my birthday this year... ^^

hiaz

haiz.... duno wat to think... haiz.
haiz............. so luan now....
haiz

some times...... but really?

sometimes.. i feel that i can share my feelings.. but really, when i think back... can i??
i feel sad sometimes... but, can i feel that way? o it is something wrong?
sometimes, i wana find a person to talk too.. but who can i find?
sometimes, i think that i can go over with a problem, but i know i can't.
sometimes, i wan to share my happyness, but than only i noe that i have no one to share my feelings to.
sometimes, i feel like wan to cry, but at last my tears flow inside to my heart.
sometimes, i feel empty but wat can i fill tit in???

haha... manything i pass just like that.. with no feelings n all.. the only thing that make me going is time... n also my will to continue study.
when i feel bad, i really hope someone would noe.... but is there/?

just like today, when i talk something, i been scold.
n when i wanted something, i also been scold.
i need to listen to everything, without saying no.
i'm afaird to say no. but thn, ppl say i do not have my own point of view. everything is needed to be done readly for me.
when i talk, ppl will not listen, so wat is the use if i talk?
i have learn to no talk. just listen. i think tat at least will not hurt my feelings which is oledi empty.
i do not hope for anything now.... nothing....

today... thursday..`!~!~~!
hihi.... i got a meeting today...
finish around 3.
yes.. ta day at least i got talk with her... ^^
so happy... BERJAYA...~!~!~!~!~
need to study now./. i dun wan to fail..~!!~!

tuesday.. Holiday~!

hihi.. today is holiday..~!~!~
at last i go c movie~!~!
haha... i went to c i'm not stupit......
the movie is so touching.... LOL... cried at cinema.... T.T
haha..... i'm really happy today..
ya, i went for a walk at sutera harbour too.... WAH... so so so so fun o....
the place is so nice.... except it is vry vry hot... ^^
well, i spend my time looking at the fishes...
so cute....
.....
today, i am so happy.. but i also need to finish my work today......
hope i can finish it o
^^
jia you me...~!~!~!

hmm....

haiz.. i fail my chinese again....
feeling not so happy... haiz.. but who will noe.....
hmm.... i just feel down this few days... i need to smile, so that ppl will not noe my feelings,...
so sad..
well, today, i study mat. matermatik most easy chapter.. matric......
i also need to prepare my shirt de design...
haiz
so sleepy.... n tired too.....

hmm....

haiz.... there is so many things in my heart, but i cannot say out.
sometimes, i really wan to find someone to talk too.. but... haha, who i have??
haiz.. so many things i just feel like scream it out... but can i?
sometimes, when i'm sad? i just can cry in to my heart... can anyone noe?
haha... ppl will think that if i dun tell ppl, how tat ppl will noe??
haha.. but wat choice do i have?
i rather choose to be the one to be hurt, rather thn the one who hurts ppl feelings.
somethings, i really feel that i do not have friends at all....
haha
lonely
i don't know how long i can stand... i really don noe..
now, even writing out my feelings is a problem?
how i'm going to stand ?

wah!~!~!~!~!~!~!~

tired~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~
so many work to do... with so little time... T.T
din sleep for 3 days liao doin work.. T.T
now still continue work ... n i have not done my homework......
omg... how o...
haiz... today need to stay up late again....
wat to do.... if wan study thn must work... ^^
GAMBATE to ME~!!~!~!

when out

hmm, today i went out to center point with my friends... i when around 11 morning, to help tty c his things for the fish tank..... thn when to center piont.. continue finding until 12.30.. OMG.. n we haven found the things..
meet louise n steph at watson... not watson actually, i think i should say in forn of the stair...
thn walk together lo.. wait for ppl...
thn i when to take my ring... hmm... fit in nicely... so happy.
we duno where to go.. so guess wat, of coz waist our time walking around.. HAHAH
we took photo together.. haha, long time din take photo... hmm, since when liao a??? haha, forgot
while waiting for the pictures to develope..... we play games... until my hand pain... T.T
thn we when play bowling... wah.. so happy.... ^^
hihi
but thn, after finish playing, when we r walking out, i of coz did the thing i can do best - JATUH... in bowling center... not fun... haha
now having mager pain on my body.. T.T
haiz.. .duno y i always fall down de....
but nvm la....
haiz.. fall till i lay down.. i quickly jump up.. but i noe many ppl saw, coz some one scream...
wah.... duno where to put my face.. haha....... but still ok la... i am use to do that,...
so i think i am vry good in falling down....something wrong with my leg i think./
hmm.... reach home now thn continue my life, work of coz.....
but i need to go take my bath first... ^^

monday

monday......
haha.. a day i use to be blue.. but today, haha, i did my homework... wah.... so li hai eh
i seldom do my homework de.. but duno y this time will do my homework.. haha.. did it for 3 hours...
hmm... i think i'm getting good... `1~!~!!~!
haha.....
today.. fasting of coz.. hmm..... i'm getting thinner o...
can c clearly./..
y does some ppl won get thin when they fast???
haiz.....
hmm... now need to think wat to eat tomolo.....
wat a/..????
haha... need to bake bisckut o.... ^^
hmm... duno how is the tast???
haha i hope will be ok....

YES~!~!~!~!

at last finish my exam.. although i pass up hmm i think 2 blank papers.. ~!~! haha... first time doing that.. y? coz i did not bring my watch... hahaha.. thn hor, got scare thn forgot everything... hahaha
really, sometimes, little things happen in our life can sometime make a big change.... HAIZ.. so meaning to say, i will mostly fail my papers.. not just one, but two of them...T.T
well, holiday is just in the corver. n i duno wat to do...... stay at home? doing nothing? i really need to thing something usefull to do...
well, now i'm having headact on how to pay all the pans???
wat la my sister..... she is the one who ask to get tat all panz.. n ask will finish with the payment.. but thn, wat happen,?? she hutang two ppl.. each person 100 ove,... headact a,,,,,...!~!~! thn all throw to me to think how..... SO So So So So So angry~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!
she first say got a way to ask them to buy, but look at now???
wat can i do???
having headact now~!~! how to pay off the depts>?????????
well, one thing i noe is that my sister is not giving me any cooperation at all,.... i really mean it.. HAIZ\1`1`1~!~!~!
wat can i do?
having holiday is not really a good thing for me. i need to stay at home.. n i basicly can't do anything....
so? da point is i hate long term holiday...
nothing to do~!

today

today is the first day of fasting.... din did much things......
hais.... hungry...^^
wish everyong happy fasting..
today i cannot go out swimming with my friends... so sad o.....
but never mind la..

saturday

well, saturdays is the day that i will be so busy, that i don't have time for my own self.. T.T
most of my friends will know that i seldom come out during saterday coz i need to teach at 4.00 and have my tuition on 7.30..
haha, it was somethings different this saturday.
i start off m day at 6.00. wake up of coz.. thn go to putatan, to help uot at a cause for the st. fransis guls. it is thier camp n we when to help uncle kang.
thn when i came back, it was already 1.30.. OMG.. really need a nap.
so of coz i when to sleep. sleep till 3.00.. thn prepare to go bhai ccenter to join thier ayyam i ha children party. so when i reach home again, it was 6.00. take my bath, thn prepare my things, there i was to go to tuition...
haha, that was my whole saturday, boring huh? HAHA....
so how was ur saturday?
mine was vry tiring, plus that i did not sleep on friday.. how could i sleep when i was sad?? haha,
so meaning it was like.... DAMn tired
haha, luckly my eye din swallen up.
ok.. ^^ need to continue my sunday life o

busy busy busy

such a busy day.. every day study stady n stady.. haiz..
pening liao...
today is assembly.. thn was librarian's meeting.. so fan o... hai.z... i so wish that i do not need to take care of the library.... T.T
but wat can i do.. not that the teacher will listen....
so today was extra busy with all the classes that need to be attain.. T.T
SO tired.~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!
but i need to finish my chinese.. wah.. not happy.....
wat to do ........
gam ba tee o me~!~!

when a gal cries

A girl wont cry easily,
Except in front of the person who she love the most, she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily, only when she love you the most, she put down her ego.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you, please hold her hands firmly, she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you, please don`t give her up, maybe bcoz of your decision, you ruin her life.
When she cries right infront of you,When she cries bcoz of you,Look into her eyes,Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?
Think.Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,In front of you,And bcoz of you?
------------------------------------------------------------------------
She cries not because she is weak,She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy orpity,
She cries,Because crying silently is no longer possible,the pain, hurt, n agony have become too big aburden to be kept inside.
Guys,Think about it,If a girl cries her heart out to you,And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,Only you will know the answer to it.
Do consider it,Coz one day,It may be too late for regrets,It may be too late to say "im sorry".
To my friends...Ponder this message seriously.
Don`t do this to a girl,You may regret for the rest of your life.
Maybe in your life,she's the only one that love YOU the most.
Remember this lesson...
Especially to all the guys out there!
Do appreciate the girl you really love no matter how!

today

just come back from ranau....so tired...
was sick the pass 6 days... haiz...
rili sick..... at least now i can start eat already.. if not, my food is just soup with rice.. T.T
well, i wana go bai nian......
this year so nothing to do...
like the chinese new year is so boring..
luckly i still was able to go some place.. hahaha...
need to be happy of that.
well, need to go take bath n eat dinner liao... ^^
wish everyone happy new year o... ^^

today..

so sleepy n tired..
try to think u hv not been sleeping since 3 weeks ago. not meaning u din even sleep at all, but u just slept for like 4 hours a day, wat u feel the next day? sleepy all rite,
that iswat i felt today.
sleepy n need to study, OMG.. tat was so hard... chinese, eco n math, all are hard sublect.. haiz... kesian me...
thn after tat, after school, i need to teach the marching team...
so kesian me o... already sleepy like hell, thn need to teach somemore
HAIZ.~!~!
comeback, at first wana just rest, who noes kena scold... T.T
so sad...
but at least tomolo is sports day.. saringan.. haha
ok, i wana sleep lo.. bb lo..
nite nite

day passes fast

few more days thn it will be the sports day n chinese new year.
well, i'm busying with sport day now, n do not have time for chinese new year.. tat is bas..
haiz, nearly lost my voice everyday.chinese new year is coming near.. but my house is in a mess...
wat i can do?
nothing la..
well, there is been many happy things happening in my group of freinds.. haha,
most of my friend has gal o boy friend liao.. so happy for them... ^^
hope all the best to u all o.. ^^
haiz..... chinese new year go where leh??
hmm, i wana get lots n lots of ang pao... (wah, so tan xin o me)
haha, but tat is the fun part of chinese new year rite,,.. ^^
today need to finish my homework o... &^^

today

i hate it....... i sometimes feel tired too......
haiz... i duno wat happen to me today, i was so in a bad mood...
angry, but i duno how to evpress my feeling. i forgot how to be angry
i really duno how
i'm scare, duno how to sad o cry o angry
although i really mad.. but....
haiz wat to do..
when can i be myself without been say by other people?
when?

wat is the differents between like n love?

In front of the person you like, your heart beats faster
But in front of the person you love, you get happy.
In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring.
But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter.
If you look into the eyes of the one you like, you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you smile.
In front of the person you like, you can't say everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love, you can.
In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy.
But in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like.
But you can always smile and stare into the eyes of the one you love.
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.
When the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
The feeling of like starts from the ear.
But the feeling of love starts from the eye.
So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.
But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever

first day of sports

hmm, today is monday, a b,lue day. but luckly today i can go for sport.............~!~!~!~!~!~!!~!~!
haha, i was change to red... so sad o...
but still ok la... can survive..... ^^ at least last time i use to hang around at red house.
hmm, teach perbarisan.......... still ok...
haha, but need to speak in bm........
hmm,
tomolo holiday, yeah, can sleep late.. so happy..

clean da room

yes.. clean my room.. haha, took all the old books out from my room. now i have extra space to put my cloth. at last i have a space to put my cloth.. ^^
thn i was a lot of cleaning... wipe all my things.. ^^ chinese new year is near.
i come across many of my old things... my letters.. haha, not only tat i noe am actually a write letter lover. my letters is one BOX... OMG>. tat is a lot.
n of coz is my ang pao pack. there are all so nice. been keeping them since young n now i found out that i do not have much space left.
thn i come across a lot of pictures. i was so small last time.. i mean tiny.. ^^
now i have grown alot.. ^^ happy of that. at last... ^^ hahah
all those funny pic taken. haha, miss those old time.. haiz.. old liao now.....
not fun...
but anyways, all those pic a only can keep them as my memory....
well, one good things is i acn wear many cloth liao.. at last... i usually cannot wear all thosecloths, but now i can liao.. need to be happy of tat.
sometimes, i feel scare that i am growing old.. but i cant change the fake that i am growing old...
haiz.. just hope that i can use.. i mean must use my time well.. ^^
wish me luck

7.25pm 星期二

今天，是2006年上课的第一天，踏上害怕的心情去上课了。
这一个星期，心情不好，不知什么地方错了。
可是，被忽烈的感觉却越来越强烈。觉得自己不怎么重要。
到了学校，尽量让那不安的心，稳定起来。
和朋友谈起话来。但，这无法让我的心情平复下来。
不知为何，我好像逃避。不想在讲话。
我怕我自己再也牚不下我的心情了。好像大声地哭出来。 让眼泪把我心里的苦衷都冲出来。
但不知为何，还是哭不出来。
每天晚上，失眠的日子，我不想再拥有了。
好像找一个热，把我心里的话告诉他，和他聊聊。
没有朋友的感觉不好，被忽烈的感觉更不好。
到底有多少个人明白我心里在想什么。
可能，我是一个很难相处的人吧？
觉得自己好失败。哈哈，真可笑。
觉得快要崩溃了。可是不能。我如何是好呢？

new year....

happy new year everyone....
haha, yesterday din spend my new year eve with my class mate... no ppl call thou... T.T
but luckly haha, celebrate with all the bahai friends.. haha...
well, i at 6.30, i when to uncle yon house to eat staem bot.. haha, so nice...
haha, first eat rice, thn eat steam bot. so fun.. it was also wai ho birthday..
haha... when in the middle of eating.. o should i say just finish eat, thn no curen.. haha
tat time, we all take the cake out.. of coz only youth la.. all the adulth at infron eat...haha
thn we sung birthday song, thn cut cake. haha, so fun o...
the cake also so nice.. yum yum...... white chocolate cake... i love it... ^^
haha, thn my sis fren come.. go to peter's house eat bbq.. yeah.. haha, fun o... ^^
there we meet many old friends n also new de.. ^^
haha.. thn play "cho dai di" with them.. loose de need to eat chicken wing.. hahaha...
so funny o.. haiz.. me kena once..
haha but the boys kena more time... hahahaha.. ke lian them
thn when new year.. we all wish each other happy new year.. it was so fun n happy.. haha, all old one year liao.
thn we when to sean sean house.. swimming... hah. swimming at midnight? nuts rite... hah
but new year ma.
haha, swim till 2.30.. thn when to sean house c movie.. but me chat with yen nie..
thn we sleep around 5.00, with the happyness in my heart... ^^ new year, mean a new day, a new hope, a new life.
today, wake up at 8.. haha, rally nuts.. but stay at sean house.. haha, all the uncle n aunty when to sean house, chit chat.. haha
thn around 2.50 afternoon, i go back home.. ^^
uncle chew send me..
but one thing, i can't send sms on new year. so sad o.. T.T was not intime to wish someone happy new year.. sorri o